Stopping?

So sometimes I wonder

I spend each night starring at this screen wondering

Is anybody out there?

Does anyone even listen?

Or am I just talking to myself?

No matter

Even if no one ever answers

I won't stop no

No I will never stop

Just in case...

But i still wonder.

If i stopped would anyone even care?

And That's All I Got

And thats all I got

Nothin left to cry

No one left to hold

Holding down nothing

Alone at last

The way I knew it would be

Breaking mirrors and starting fires

Swimming in oceans and running across the world

Shining like a star in the night sky

Twinkling and dazzling to all

But to me

I am nothing special

Just broken slowly fading behind the moon

Alone with no one to relight me

Surely this is not how it will end

But honestly I don't know

I hope this is not how she felt when i left

I'm not giving up yet

Oh no

I'm looking for happiness

Walking a thousand miles

On broken glass

Looking for those eyes I know so well

Looking for someone to smile

Saying all my hearts will until I see something

Someone who has hope

Inside tothe core

No doubt no more

Even if it'll never be the girl I see

When I look at the reflection

On broken mirrors

In the night sky there's no worry

I'll never see her anyway

Come on now

Shine bright for a while darling

Blind

I'm fine
Just breath and let go
Repeat
I'm fine
On the outside stand tall and proud
Sleeves rolled down to hide the secrets of my break
Avert your eyes from pain and heartache
Don't let them know every step hurts
But in away no one could comprehend
Stand tall and proud
Smile, good, now laugh
They can't see the dust
That my heart has gradually become
it's the little things that rip me apart
But I can't stop these tears
That quietly kiss my cheek
The world is blurry
Looking through my heartbreak
The world just hurts me
When you ignore my pain
Could it be more obvious?
Do I have to scream your name?
hey brown eyes
you're hurting me
hey brown eyes
I'm falling fast
hey brown eyes why can't you see
I'm in misery
I need your touch
to fill the cracks of my heart
hey brown eyes
prepare to say good bye
because tonight
When I say I love you
It'll be the last breath I ever take
And I dedicate it
to you

The Beginning of the End

it's called the beginning
Solely based on the fact that it's new
something untouchable that passes through the soul
like the soft metal that touches my temple
It's called the end
For many people know it's time to let go, but still hold on
Like the trigger I gently caress
It's where the line breaks
and the bridge falls
when I go weak in my knees
Where my smile once was
Is painted with scars
Revealed for the first time
for the world to see
The end brings no closure
The difference that it makes
At a point like this
Closure is insignificant
It's the end of the line
Wake up and step off
No turning back now
But those big brown eyes just beg me to stay
Though I know,it isn't my name they call
It never was me
Though I like to believe it is
Hoping this dream comes true
But I still feel the weight in my hand
Hollow pain in my chest
Now a hole in my head
As I fall into my sleep
As my dreams without him become reality

Unforgettable

I wish it were as easy as saying

No never again

And closing my book of a heart

But no my heart is the pen on an empty page

Drawing every feature of your unforgettable face

Refusing to let go

Of something that doesn't and will never exist

Drawing every line of two hands clasped

Inseprable halves of a whole

Love in the air so thick

There is no way to breath

But no it's not love

It's just an empty poets heart

Trying to close the wounds

With a being so beautiful

And a being that sticks so perfectly

So perfectly between each crack

It's meant to be

But this love is a one way street

With a clueless other half

And new cracks are formed

And new words are written

Of pain and feelings of being worthless

And soon the cycle begins again

But here my heart is again

Drawing those deep brown eyes

That shining smile

And such an unforgettable laugh

The light to my mind

That keeps out the dark even for a minute

A new purpose

If only this love

Wasnt a one way street

That is bound to end

In new scars and cracks

On a broken hopeless romantics heart

Like Nothing At All

Standing here

Heart in my throat

Feet melted to the ground

Knees buckling and going weak

My jaw is dropping

And butterflies are fluttering

There's nothing I can say or do

To tell you why I feel this way

But I can say

I wouldn't change that little ache

When I know you don't care

I wouldn't give up that hope

That maybe you'll be there

I wouldn't change that wish

That this will all turn out fine

Even if I lose my mind

This feeling

Can take control and I would never complain

This feelin like nothing at all

I give it my blessing to conquer my world

Because if a simple dream of you

Having the same feeling

Can make me float allthrough the day

If a single dream of holding you

Can take all the bad memories away

If your amile and laugh

Can push away the darkness taking over my world

Than I know

I shouldn't give up this feeling

For anything in he world

Losing Time