Who Am I?

Sometimes I wish I has a mommy to coddle me
Sometimes I wish I had a daddy to spoil me
Sometimes I wish I had a family that never falls apart
Sometimes I wish I wasn't me
My wishes never seem to come true
And I'm stuck running from everything I am
Everything I do and have is not what I want
I need a second chance to redo it all
I can no longer control myself
Maybe I am insane
But no matter what I need help
I have no clue what you want to see
I keep trying and it's not working for me
Honestly I don't know who or what I am
The only time me comes out is when I am writing
She breaks free
At night when I'm sitting alone crying
She is disappointed in what I have done to her
I do not blame her
Who the hell am I?
Where have I gone?
Someone please, help me....